Opposite other

It's long past time to find someone. Someone both cruel and soft. A not-quite-biological dick to suck and f*ck, but with someone on the other end who understands what I need, and maybe even cares, just a little, just for a night, perhaps. Time for someone new so that memory doesn't haunt me and lonliness doesn't taunt me quite so much. So that I won't care about the casual cruelty of the last encounter. I long ago stopped mourning the loss, but I haven't quite gotten back in the saddle despite a few scattered dates here and there. There are so many other things in my life: friends, family, work; I'm fine by myself. But it's time to try again, to walk once more that dangerous edge of trust and desire. Time to find someone to understand the queer girl parts of me that sometimes shy away in their strength. Time to let myself care again.

Change of Seasons

The weather has just changed rapidly from late summer with warm, dry winds to full winter in the middle of a thunderstorm, and with the change of seasons, I change as well. All of a sudden I've become lonely, romantic, longing. I want to cuddle with someone, watching TV and waiting out rainstorms. I want to make out with someone. I want someone to just hold me.

The moments of weakness are the hardest for me. I usually keep myself busy and I'm usually fine not dating anyone. I'm fiercely independent and I know how to take care of myself. I'm the one constantly reminding my friends not to settle for someone who isn't right for them, not to be afraid of being alone. Usually I'm strong and I don't need anyone, but when the winter wind starts to bite at my nipples, it stirs something within me. It reminds me that however strong I can be, I want nothing more than to be a little kitten sometimes, too. However satisfied I am with my friends and my life as it is, I want someone to kiss me.

Winter is a time for gathering around a hearth, drinking and eating heartily and sharing love and friendship. People draw together to keep out the weather, and I go looking for someone with whom I can hibernate and wait out the winter in bed.